The Price is Worth the Prize

Okay, so I thought maybe some of my family or local friends keep up on my weightloss blog. Lately, I've been getting a lot of feed back. I'm kind of embarrased, but also really impressed that so many people are cheering me on. THANKS YOU GUYS!!! I guess I should start taking pictures after my make up is on.

So, I've lost five more pounds and I finally, let me say that again, FINALLY, found my groove. I've found a few treasures that really left a lasting impression. Maybe sometime when it's not midnight, I'll go into that more.

Alright, so I made cookies tonight for some friends and family and I can honestly say I ate a small portion and stopped. Not because I felt guilty, but because I was truly done eating. What an amazing feeling of peace and just happiness to have my cake (cookie) and eat it too. So this is why I haven't given up yet. Losing the weight has been more than just pounds, it's been entirely exhausting and has really stretched my determination and tested my desire. But I found something out these past months: I really truly want to be healthy. I want to be in inpecable shape not because it looks good, but because it feels good. It feels good to feel your heart beating. It feels good to know you are nourishing your body with good food. It feels good to run up and down the field, or around the block. It feels good to feel good. This is something I did not understand 10 years ago when I was suffering from an eating disorder. Let me tell you something: there is a right way to do things and there is a wrong way to do things. Do it the right way, even if it's hard. Even if it takes a LLLLLLLOOOOOONNNNNNGGGGGG time. Look at me, ten years. But that's ten years behind me and yeah, I still have more to work on, but that's ten years done the right way, never needs to be worked through again. And now I have the rest of my life to live as full as I can live. But I guess it's more than that, it's eternity I can build upon. That's pretty cool. My sister sent me this quote that I think is awesome: "the price is worth the prize".